Secrets and Stories

There's something about control.

When my mind has control over my body.

I love this feeling... and I can feel it in a few different ways. When everything in my body tells me that I need food, but my mind chooses "no," I have control. When I'm running and my body tells me to stop, tells me that I have no energy left, but my mind chooses "keep going," I have control. When everyone in the world tells me that I'm starving myself... that I need to change things, but my mind says "This is the right thing to do," I have control.

Instead of focusing on the hunger or the exhaustion, focus on the power that you have when your mind wins!

Remember how good it feels to always be in control... and remember how horrible you feel when you let your hunger or exhaustion win.

Keep going girls! We're only as strong, thin, and beautiful as our minds decide to be!

On my period... I wish I was back in the days when I wouldn't get it because I wasn't eating enough to have any nutrition inside of me! It's like I gain weight just for a few days of misery. UGH!

There is one important thing about this journal... it will be used for me to vent, so that nobody in my life will ever find it or know what goes through my mind. There is something comforting about sharing things with people who you know won't ever judge you or try to change how you live your life... and if they do... fuck 'em.